WAKE UP FARRAH…
August 23, 2009
I need to be alone right now.
I don’t have anything to give anyone & yet people keep wanting from me
to feed off my energy to suck what little I have in me
Ive depleted myself going to a job I hate
Sleeping everynight in a bed where I’m not sure if the man I love is cheating on me
Ignorance is bliss and so I stayed there for a while
My ignorance and distrust of my own gut feeling and refusal to add up all the pieces to see who this man was ate me alive
So I left.
He was a beautiful man but he wasn’t my man.
My man would never put another woman before me
I would be his Goddess and he would remind me throuh his touch that he is God
I wish religion didn’t have such a hold on the mind like that.
I need to set myself free.
August 22, 2009
Why on earth would we want something our whole lives and never go for it?
What are we thinking?
Are we insane?
We always want what we don’t have
And don’t appreciate what we do have.
We always want more
it satisfies something within us
We always need something.
I always need something…
I have always wanted to be more
I’ve decided to become One now
DON’T FALL ASLEEP
July 26, 2010
Who are you?
A Spirit, a Soul?
Every soul is an image of the world.
Are you both?
The false self is an aberration of nature and distances the soul from Divine Light.
The true nature of all of creation.
Who will wake up and who will stay asleep?
That’s the running story!
They want us all to win but they won’t make us wake up.
They play the game and you’re still asleep.
I’m too polite.
You like your bed.
Wake yourself up.
Wake up to your other self.
Wake up through pain.
Don’t fall asleep again.
ALLOW YOUR OLD WAYS TO BE ILLUMINATED…
July 29, 2010
It may be time to initiate yourself into the mysteries. The Journey of Self is one you begin alone.
Yet we are never truly alone are we? What does Source feel like.
I can’t try to make it happen; I have to let it happen. And the desire comes first.
My Guide says listen: Anytime you feel negative about a thing or situation, that’s your inner-self guiding you. It's telling you that you have an unfulfilled desire hidden within the thing that you hate. The work is the evolution. Its time to look your shadow in the face.
Stop avoiding the feeling and just look at it! Watch it fade away instantly. Just do the thing, or say the thing that causes you to feel negativity. Call it out from hiding. This is your secret, so see it.
A cycle of regeneration needs to occur. Those old things you have to leave in order for your new life to have fresh ground to take root in. Allow it to happen. You have to want change. The universe is so neatly set up as to give you everything you ask for. Now whether you allow it in is up to you. The energy you carry and the vibration you maintain are the keys to allowing it in.
Consider This: Could negativity be just a judgment and in its highest truth it’s not good or bad?
Channeled July 29, 2010
November 21, 2011
I will make an attempt to be vulnerable and to tell this story from the deepest part of me
Infinite, interdimensional, interstellar
The smaller you blushes when I come to mind but its time to let the cat goddess out of the box.
You intuition was successful
I will grant you 3 wishes
They come in sets so that you have magical creative power in sets of 3’s
So ask for what you want and of course after these 3 are used you get another set of 3 to play with.
This is a fun game
In opening my heart to you I feel naked, vulnerable open and I feel love.
I shrink into a puddle of luminous reflective water on the ground and go deeper into the earth with out a sound
You’ve been taught buy the earth
She is the greatest gift
The highest class room
You’ve been seeking your guides
I have been with you
I am your Great Mother
Always speaking to you.
Known by many names
To many species
I am you and you are me
I understand my love
I have something to tell you…
THE PASTOR AIN’T TELLIN’ THE TRUTH
March 27, 2012
I think my words are rejected because they shatter people hopes.
The dreams they have of a savior coming down from the clouds to save them I make them afraid
I speak of the mythos
I need a way to describe it
a way to share with them that there is nothing to fear
Our society has been fed a mythos of the past, our preachers spend most of their time in allegory
Trying to decipher the mythos from their current state of unbalanced emptiness
I could no longer visit churches
The pastor ain’t telling the truth
He can’t teach what he doesn’t know
Hes blinded by what he was taught
Haunted by his own sins
Dealing with is own demons
Reflecting all his inner thoughts on to the congregation
They think they need to be saved
Meditation could help
He should find out how and teach them
I no longer follow the masters religion.
That time is over.
The battle has been won.
What I can’t believe is that nobody told us the war was over.
We still live in fear everyday working jobs we hate, never having enough time or money to relax and contemplate the mysteries of life.
Its designed that way, to keep us in a monastic faith and demonize us by mistakes and make us believe that this world we created
No its not…
Maybe it is
This place would be easy to turn around
Just dig some ground and lets build a new city
Lets use free energy
Lets be an abundant and beautiful free planet anyway
Change the vibration.
The pastors don’t know any better.
August 24, 2012
I’ll be 28 forever
Patiently waiting to feel good
My body is still tight
Looking in the mirror…
Looking Deep into my foundations
Pain makes you beautiful
At least that’s what I learned at 23
I wrote this story in a time when
Herstory was an old religion to the uncivilized
Consisting of Many nights of well deserved pain
And soft sparks fly
The beginning of I
What is God?
A he or a she?
Don’t you remember?
We create worlds In our minds with soft sighs of wonder
What is God an it or an energy?
Did you hear me girl?
We create worlds In our minds with soft sighs of wonder
I am innocent
I am known as walking redemption
I’m perfecting the art of walking on water
Check my technique
My best friends would call me love if they knew me
But they don’t
My words create Light with shapes in the divine matrix
I take responsibility for my airy seeds
Sacred shapes drift off my tongue
Enticing me to eat my words like cherries
Blackberries and banana pudding the hood kind
The child Divine
I create existence
I know nothing of my power
I know nothing of my relevance
I am unable to defend myself I need help
I need a savior
I am my savior…
I create worlds in my mind with soft sighs of wonder
I keep creating worlds
My Tongue has always been too shy to speak
Does everyone talk to God or just me?
Did it get mad or have a great idea
Did it orgasm?
And create Carbon
6 sets of electrons 6 sets of neutrons and 6 six sets of Protons.
Life is the Beast Itself
666 That's the concrete plan
I’ve slept on worse surfaces
There are creator gods posing as your god The One
Jealousy runs deep in the womb of my herstory
Imagine a seed that grew in ideas
false fake made up ideas & in a sea of ideas she grew
Space, vast and wide
Then she woke up
Are you serious?
Dead Serious, The Dogons Tribe says that the Earth is evolving
I believe them
I am her to assist in the galactic shift and so are you but you forgot.
My roots go deep
I am a vortex
A wind a delightful, ambassador from the Yin Dynasty
I revel in the exoticism of it all
I used to hear the thoughts of others on subway trains in New York City
Someone told me “you can never hear the thoughts of another”
How would they know?
But I did, sometimes I still do…
They used to secretly ask me if I could hear their calling….
I couldn’t hear their calling
I couldn’t even hear my own calling
I behaved so badly, so godly, so unruly
I am God & the devil
We each have a calling
How annoying it is to be classified as so many things that I didn’t choose
I’m Black a girl, , daughter, sister, whore, bitch, prostitute, mother, queen, goddess, god, twat whatever
And all without consent…
Labels are a prison for the mind.
Give me free
I’m a self confessed journey…
A saint and a sinner…
I am neither
Only lately… I can see myself…
I can see myself
I wake up with fire and ice in my chest,
Considering the Zombie reality
I can’t quite it…
I just want to want fuck something and go back to sleep just like the rest of the world
Other days I dream of Paris
When I’m sleepy I go back and find my lover in my mind
My obsession for androgyny
I allow your energy to enter me
As I go down… down … down…. Deep into you
Through the mud, and weeds
Through my sorrow, and shame
Rocks and embarrassment
Negative financial gain
Guilt and fear
I hate her the more I get closer to her
She reminds me of my shit I see myself
I allow my essence to burrow deep into the earth
6 feet… 7…. 12…
Electricity she wakes me and reminds me that I’m not me
She journeys me to my core…
Our core…. I am nothing
And we merge…….
I draw in healing energy through the bottoms of my feet
I allow the light and the energy of the earth to cleanse me
I allow my ancestors song to vibrate every cell in me
I hear the beating drum and finally understand the rhythm of my heart.
I take control breath out stress, drama and negativity.
Could it be that I just need a small place a space to apologize to myself?
Back to the beginning
Located at the base of my spine is my root
I am creative intelligence in the flesh
Finding her voice
Grounding, connecting, courageously
Awaken awareness within me
I choose to heal and balance all forces and energies within me
I no longer fear the same God you love.
I choose to awaken wholeness, truth and strength within
Do you understand that you are the only black person in the room entertaining?
You are relevant to the peoples understanding.
I claim to be 28 again perpetuating my own illusion
I choose to be a better version of myself.
Farrah… The Quantum Poet
July 3, 2013
I was her little possession
She kept me safe and I kept her dreaming
Dreaming about love and kissing
I make her laugh
I challenge her
She misses me
I never gave myself fully
Sometimes you say
She says she didn’t know the extent of my amazingness until she came in touch with her own self.
She says I taught her a lot
July 3, 2015
Notice the many petals of the crown chakra… your lotus petals grow with education, learning, experience, allowing you to receive more information. The more petals the more information you can hold.
The brain is a seed that must flower. The petals are your legacies.
Love & compassion is the key to receiving evolutionary information. The information that answers your questions. Your desire and need to know is your fuel.
Your society kills those that kill, try loving those that kill and you receive and evolutionary leap in the consciousness of everyone on the planet.
The Game is between you and the System. Your society can and will change things by deciding to do things differently. For changing how you learn and relate to each other and everything. You will upgrade yourself.
Inner and outer beauty
Mind body soul
Spirit, religion, choices, confidence, peace of mind, money, buying, luxury, love, sex, what you know about life and who told you. Parents, preacher, father, teacher.
Time to learn more. Expand your awareness, not everything is the devil or god, most times its you.
Be guided by your intuition, instincts, your life experiences, always in the flow always on the path.
Keep creating, learning reading, be lead by the inner you the real you.
You have something you came to earth to do. Everyone has. It’s so close to you you miss it. Its something you do every day.
Give yourself praise, create healthy habits and rituals to support your goals and dreams.
Have the courage to move. Disappoint, break up, continue on, clean yourself up.
Forgive yourself, accept your behaviors, your past acts and dirty deeds. You needed them to progress and become the perfect you and to do what you came to Earth do.
You can imagine that there is 1 problem that you came here to fix it.
Stop rushing. Pay attention. Be in the now. Keep trying. You have all of your life to do it.
SAT |SADA SAT| ASAT
July 4, 2015
A sea of bliss?
An open eye would spend some time getting to know you
if it only knew you existed
Hidden on purpose from me so that my ancestors could pass down the tradition slavery?
Fabricated success and spiritual entropy?
At the end of my last lifetime my body was numb
I was cold, I never want to be buried again
Another cog on the wheel of human energy
Destined to do the chores that fuel society
And this is my life,
Passionless and bruised
Running and never moving
Standing still reading a book that insists Earth is only 6000 years old
That same spiritual leader told me dinosaurs never existed & he never said my name right.
And I was pissed but the devil scared me enough to forget again
I felt pain and someone said it makes you beautiful…
In that moment the magic of science and Her-story excited me
Sheer deception was presented to me
Only I could see because at 12 I started reading Jung and this knowledge gave my mind wings
What is the world made of?
Where am I?
Where have I been?
11 bridges appeared in superposition
Wheels of light that carried me
They stored my lifetimes on jump drives
They pressed play and showed me my life on movie screens.
I Am Phoenix dying to the Self a thousand times from the fire I arose
Every time I see my own shadow I want to neutralize her
This is the basis of my evolution
Subjective in the Self I Am Infinite
I Am Creative
I Am Intelligence
If the eye only knew you
The self would be released into a see of Me
Natural law and perfect design has been covered and denied to the perception of most men.
The Great Game is being played & since you’re playing
I am remembering & I Am whispering… Gaia…
The greatest trick the devil would have played if he existed was the manipulation of mans DNA.
Man, alien, manifestation, creation, demiruge?
Good and evil collide in harmony in the sea of Infinite Bliss.
As above, so below
Is the Quantum nature of the Unified Field the same Abrahamic God of the 3 fighting religions?
Is the God of 3 fighting religions Extraterrestrial in nature?
Was he the one to create the systems, the seals, the secret societies, the grail?
God and Science have merged in agreement considering a Thing unknown and withdrawn
An experience of freedom
And information is given freely
Wisdom, pictures, sounds, words, music, inspiration, synchronizations, feelings passions and plans…
If you want them.
This world is quantum in nature and there are many levels to consider things on
Things can easily be in 2 places at the same time
All is One remember & especially if you’re not looking
using your mind like crayons
coloring life with your thoughts
I Am the observer
Alive, evolved, blue, green, water, nourishing, round, floating in space….
Supportive, loving, silent, radiant, kind, giving, patient, speaking…
She sends a break to my heart…
She sends fire to my dreams…
She calls me in the clapping of the leaves…
Chants of the past from trees…
She tells me that I am a descendant of Goddesses
The 8th in line
from the lineage of those that can hear.
She has a message
Make movies and show them the patterns that you see…
Water, Earth, Air, Fire, Ether…